About Me

To the talk show's or anyone who would open up to have a heart that would look at my website, and help me......

Oprah Winfrey, Montel Williams, Tyra Banks, Jerry Springer, Dr. Phil, Tony, Maury Povich, Greg Behrendt, Dr. Keith Ablow, Martha Show, The View, Regis and Kelly, Ellen Degeneres,, Megan Mullally. Rachael Ray, The Early Show, Good Morning America, The Today Show, The Tony Danza Show, ABC extreme make over,

I am trying so hard here to get someone to help me. Don't ask me to do a video tape. I had problems with that already when I was doing it for ABC Extreme Makeover. I sent a letter and pictures last year to Oprah and Tyra and no answer from them. Oh well who cares any ways, but I keep trying tell they do care. If I have to send millions of emails to these people every day, I will.......

My name is Brenda, I am 40 years old. I was born in Bakersfield, Ca. Mostly grew up in Sacramento, Ca

I was born with birthdefects that cause me sadness in my life. My looks robbed me from achieving my goals and dreams. All I did through out my life is dream how life could of been if I wasn't born with birthdefects. Myself esteem has been really low. When I look in the mirror I see deformed face that I can't cover up. I am so a shame of myself and I don't feel good about my life. I have been depress through out my life. This is my feelings and no medication can't take that away. Medication will not help me get the surgeries that I need.

I had a hard life growing up. In my childhood life, I have been made front of allot. It had defected my life and my spiritual growth. Today I am still being made front of. I am so tired of being looked down at and assuming that I am handicapped because of the way I look. It hurts so much. I wish it would stop. I am on {S.S.I} Social Security Disability. I hate it.

I wish I could come out of my shell and be really happy in life. That's the part is so hard for me. When you see me smile it doesn't mean anything. I hide my inner self inside. I have no self esteem, no cofendents in myself, I don't believe in myself, I am motional and depress person who has no life. I feel helpless and a shame. I put myself down allot. I feel this body that I have is really not me. It is hard to explain until you are in my shoes.

I dream about what life could of been if I was born different. I dream of succeeding and being successful. I always wanted to be a country singer sense I was alittle girl. As I got older I still wanted to sing and be in country videos.But I know that's not going to happened. Who would want me in the music indrastry? No body.

I dream of having my own business so I don't have to answer to know body. When I use to work I had allot of problems with employees and employers. This is when I was married back in the late 90's and early 2000's. Divorce now in 2003, separated in 2001. Life sucks when you have none. I can't even get a drivers license because the way my eye's are. That's not fair.Their is more things to talk about. I am having a hard time talking about it right now.

The only way I am going to have a better life if I had corrected surgeries from a hand skill doctor's who can help me. Of course the help of one of the talk show's who has a heart, that will accept me.

I had surgeries back in the early 70's on my eyes and tear ducks, and hands and feet. You can tell with the scars that I have now that I had surgeries. Back then they didn't have the technology then they do now.

Eyes: James Roberts MD 645 W. Harding Way Stockton, Ca 95204 - Eyes: Crowell Beard 240 Meridiah Ave San Jose, Ca 95126 These two doctors worked together.

Hands, Feet Surgery: Sherman F. Saffier MD 4255 Pacific Ave Stockton, Ca 95207